 Thursday, November 30, 2006
 at 5:37 AMI dunno why i reacted lyk dat.. Not once, but twice! When u get the chance, u missed it. Once u lose it, then u'll regret it.. Sumtyms i just dun understand myself..Sumtyms my reactions are so contradicting from what i felt & tink.. When he's not there, u'd b searching for him. Hoping, hoping & hoping.. When u knw he's around, u're excited. When he's ryt there in front of u... ??? There goes ur opportunity.. I still dun get it..Y..? Y did i throw the chance away? Nervous?..am i really nervous still?.. Scared?..Scared of wat??! I just so hate myself for reacting contradictingly. Less than 1 minute, once i turn away, i felt sooo bad! Only then, i will ask myself y didnt i go up to u or stay longer...? Y?Y?Y? No use regretting.. I always had this problem since last tym. Not knowing how to react. Do a different thing from what i felt. I was so confused at myself especially before.. Luckily its not that bad now.. Sumtyms either i would over-react or under react. lyk WTH ryt? Is it part of growing up? In search for ur own identity? Well, i dun expect ppl to understand me. How would they,when I dun understand myself? I've always seems to be finding my own identity, understanding myself better.. Somehow i do gt it, to an extent. Still to a small extent, there are sum remainings for me to find out N for u to know.. .:To u: Its not u, its me.. :.
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