 Wednesday, August 09, 2006
 at 8:14 PMLast day of class for this semester. Exams. Thats all left before 2 month plus of break at last! i sure need to make a great deal of tym to cover up all my modules. Pray hard i'd pass this semester. Wasnt my real self since year 2 last sem till now. Wished to b myself lyk in year 1. My grades has been decreasing constantly since 2 year last sem. Im not sure who to blame. is it my position?if not i wouldnt have worked n school. or is it just myself? do I only have myself to be blamed? Positive.its just me. Other people works too but still can score in school.y not me?i wasnt as before. giving up is the last ting on my list.i would rather fail trying than Fail without trying! Now it seems im getting so slack eversince TEP!n its still stick on me now after so long. Still slacking. Sumtyms it would go up but only for a while before it went down back again. When i need sumone to give me all the encouragement and build back my confidence, i realized i approached the wrong person who still have the cheek to say 'she's my fren'. n now we ALL know her true colors. Not by WORDS bt she herself reveal all her dirty tactics. n oh Puh-Lees gal, dun ever tink dat were gonna beg to go to back to u. In fact, were not even gonna bother even if you were to come crawling back to us. Dream On. Satisfied with wat u did? Having fun telling around stories to others?With your 'cunning,backstabbing n 'twist n turn' everyting until u got urself entangled in ur own mess of lies' So by telling stories to others made u have lots of 'frens'? If so, how come u r always seen alone? Oh ya u do have 'frens'. Crawling back to those who had discriminated u n laughing at ur back. Or crawling back to those whom u ever made tales out of before. Its really funny how u could ever do that. Pathetic ain it? Even that person dun even want u s a 'fren'. After she had discriminate u, u still r crawling back to them? Hoping they would except u? I wonder if u ever have feelings. Oh sure u do. Only think of ur own feelings. Tanks fer being my 'fren'. Bringing me even lower when im already down. Dats clearly my weakness. I knew its happening. But i still give people a chance until i left wif none. Too nice? Too patient? Yes i tink so.. My limit has already went way beyond anything... Maybe bcos i've encountered a far worst situation than this which made me to be patient beyond limits. Anyway, thats just parts n parcels of life. Without all these people, life would be boring and not challenging. I still pray they would realise one day n know their mistakes. No.Im not saying that im perfect. i too have made mistakes. Everyone does. Its only a matter of u see it or not. Its a matter of time that u realise them. God, give me the will. Lead me the path.For im afraid to be LoSt..
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